Well after a day on the wter and pb the island tanning and getting drunk I am home. And very drunk. Time to do homework ordered pizza and stuffed our faces yeah that drunk life. It’s okay we had amazing sex like amazing to cover for the 2 pieces of pizza I had. Not to mention the amount of other things I’ve had mmmhmm I got cream puffs for dessert. 2 ss because you always go back for more. Thanks tk anyone who understands that last sentence.
Strung out from being a full time student?
No.
What about having to worry about bills for the first time in your life?
No.
Crazy people at work?
Yes.
Having to go above and beyond for no reward or even a thank you?
Yes.
And yet I find myself still putting on my mask evrytime I clock in. Almost every SOB that walks past me I smile and ask “hi how are you today need help finding anything?”
How do I do it you ask?
I have no clue been there since I was 14 was I guess born into this BS.
Yeah its a pay check don’t get me wrong people tell me not to complain there are pleanty of people who don’t have jobs. Well I do and I also go to school and I babysit multiple times a week to top that. All while being the best girlfriend I can be with the only man I’ve ever felt the need to impress. Bills get paid I am happy.
Just can’t wait to get away, I look forward to it because I know I will get away. I am smart and I am driven.
I feel bad for so many of them(my co workers ) they will never get out. Few do. Many people get sucked in young so you know nothing else. Brain washed pretty much. They almost had me thank my mother who opened my eyes.
My health?
Living on coffee.
Back to starving myself since I gained almost 15 disgusting pounds back.
Mentally I say I’m okay my boyfriend worries sometimes but I am minus work. I love him and I am loving myself more than I ever have before minus the fat and the ugly.
Sometimes I worry about myself but than I remember that life has ups,downs, rock bottoms and kodak moments. This is just a mood swing ill be better in 10 minutes I’ve hit rock bottom I hope and I see my Kodak moments they have been the past year and I have a feeling that they will continually fill my scrapbook for years to come.
